I love all my friends . I have never regret knowing them . I respect each and every of them . You cant tell which is good and which is not by their looks right . Friends is very important to me... they are like my family too <3 There are 3 different levels of friends... Your close friends are those that will be with you in whatever situation that you are in . Your good friends is those that you always hang around or go out with . And your best friends are those that you trust and share your secrects with . Friends... They will always be by your side when you need help and when you are having problem . They are so called your problem solver too ! Dear friends, I LOVE ALL OF YOU <3

Thursday, June 23, 2011

I'm having a hard time ~

I'M A LONER, I GUESS !


Hidup itu adalah sesuatu kenyataan, ia adalah sebuah reality.
Sesuatu yang terjadi di dalam hidup itu, adalah kenyataan.
Hendak-lah kita menjalani-nya dengan tabah.

Bagi aku, hidup aku adalah sebuah cabaran.
Yang Allah telah tetapkan untuk aku.
Banyak dugaan dan rintangan yang telah aku lalui.
Tapi aku tetap harus bersabar untuk menghadapi ini semua.

Hanya engkau sahaja lah yang tahu penderitaan yang aku alami setiap malam.
Ya allah, tolong lah aku..Aku tidak kuat untuk menanggung ini semua sendirian.
Aku sudah cuba sedaya upaya aku untuk melupakan masa lalu aku, tapi tetap gagal.
Aku penat untuk menitiskan airmata-ku setiap malam.
Tapi walau bagaimana sekali pon aku cuba untuk kawal airmata-ku ini,
ia tetap jatuh membasahi pipiku )':
Aku maseh berlinangan airmata semasa aku melafaz-kan perasan aku...
Ya allah, berilah aku kekuatan..

Kalau benar-lah dia bukan jodoh aku, kenapa aku berasa begini ?
Kenapa-lah susah sangat aku nak tinggal-kan dia ?
Apa yang ada pada diri-nya, yang membuat aku susah hendak meninggalkan-nya ?
Ya allah, kenapa kenapa kanapa ?!!!!

Aku tidak pernah berasa begini seumur hidup aku terhadap seseorang...
Dan kenapa sekarang baru aku berperasan begini ??
Mungkin aku ni, suway sangat tak ?
Selalu-nya seseorang yang aku sayang itu, akan pergi jauh meninggalkan aku )':
Aku tidak tahu mengapa, hanya DIA lah yang tahu ...



Mengapa kau pergi, mengapa kau pergi, disaat aku mulai mencintaimu.
Berharap engkau jadi kekasih hatiku, malah kau pergi jauh dari hidupku.
Menyendiri lagi, menyendiri lagi, disaat engkau tinggalkan diriku pergi.
Tak pernah ada yang menghiasi hariku, disaat aku terbangun dari tidurku.

Aku inginkan dirimu, datang dan temui aku.
Kan-ku katakan padamu, aku sangat mencintai dirimu.
Aku inginkan dirimu, datang dan temui aku.
Kan-ku katakan padamu, aku sangat mencinta.


Maybe i should MIA soon ...
To chillax myself from being so stress out ~
Goodbye ...

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Everything was last minute, but it went smoothly...

Today was like the HAPPIEST DAY of my life !
HAHAHAHA :DD
Like FINALLY i get to go to MALAYSIA !!
WOOHOO ! YEAAH YEAAH !
I know you guys will be like, "WTHF***?!"
Malaysia only what -.- TOOT !
But it was the 1st time for me, so yeah you know right (:
Hahaha !

Let me story a lil' bit how it goes alright !
Okay, ytd i was a bit bored at home..
Planned to meet FARRAH and ERRA at 6pm.
But the time was only 11.40am..
So i decided to SPAM FARRAH, since she didnt reply my msges and calls !
(ERRA was texting me at the same time!)

Then FARRAH suddenly call me !
She say, "Woi tak ader keje eh SPAM SPAM ??"
Then i laugh and say," Abeh kau tak reply aku ):"
Then said that she going JB, then i say,"abeh pegi tak ajak?"
Then she say you serious? If u wanna join me, then get changed! I'll picked you up later (:
Then i throw my phone and get changed lah!!!
hahaha happy giler seh (:
Hanya dia lah yang tau bertapa gembira-nya aku pada ketika itu :D
Dah siap, i went down to wait for FARRAH pick me up.
Sooner she reached and off we went to malaysia (:
Reached the S'pore Custom only, im excited already!
hahaha JAKUN GILER SEH ^^
When i reached MALAYSIA, it feels so different !
Everthing was in MALAY language.
The signboards, and everything lah!!
hahahah !!
We went there to sent off FARRAH's Grandpa..
Then we went S-Mart Market to buy some groceries and food..
We eat, then off back to S'PORE !
That moment of time, i'm like (Goodbye Msia, hope to see u again! )':

Reached back here, all went home to change then off to swimming!
Met FARRAH and ERRA outside swimming complex ^^
Reached around 7pm then we swim till closed .
During swimming, was talking abt movies !
Then FARRAH says that the LADDALAND movie ending soon.
So aper lagi kan, straight away washed up and rushed to CWP!
To catch the last show (:
Movies at starts at 9.45pm, we reached there just in time (:
Then went in the movie theatre and watch till habis uh ^^
Ended around 11.30pm~
Separated from FARRAH and ERRA at interchange..
Goodbye hug and kisses, then separated to take bus home.
Quite a scary movie, but nice :DD
Kinda scared to go home after that, called azfar !
To acc me talk on the phone, but he didnt pick up my call ):
Then went home alone~
Reached home around 12midnight, and off to bed ..
Tired but its really a fun day :DD

Thank you FARRAH, credits goes to you and your mom~
i really enjoyed my day!
Thank you alot babes! ^^

Sunday, June 19, 2011

I'm SAD and DISAPPOINTED ! ):

In life, LOVE is important.
But FRIENDSHIP is more important than that.

I didn't know that YOU could ignore me because of relationship.
I understand that YOU need to spend time together with each other.
But just by spending a FEW HOURS with me, will ruin your relationship?
Wow, i didn't know that~
Congrats for hurting my feelings guys.

I understand that couples will need to spend time together at times but just by spending a short period of time meeting me, YOU rejected.
Thanks uh.

Yes i understand, because i've been in a relationship before. Eventhough, it was just a short period of time and i understand the LOVE feelings that you've got.

But to be frank, i'm really disappointed in YOU.
I don't know that YOU would to this to me...
(Not 1 but 3 of you)
im really sadden ...

I called Erra, but she said that she was with Afiq.
So i understand that, i wouldn't want to disturb you guys.
I called Mani then, he said that he was at home.
I was happy at first, thought that i could meet him.
But then, he said that he was with his girlfriend at home.
i said nvm then ~
Called Anna after that, no reply.
Msg her, still no reply.
(1 hour later...)
"I now with my boyfriend, acc him cut hair."

I was TOTALLY upset after that.
Knowing that all 3 of them are with their gf/bf ..
Not even 1 is there for me..
Texted azfarr also, but no reply ~
I GIVE UP, IM FUCKED UP ! -.-

Dah lah, merajok uh.
Semua tengah sebok dengan mataer kan!
Where got time for me anymore )':
Dulu i also ader, but he also............
HAIS !
Dah lah, think that aku ni suway sangat agaknyer...
Sudah lah, pegi uh sumer, tinggalkan aku uh!
merajok besar uh !
hmmm...Grrrr ! )':
Kay bye uh ~

Saturday, June 18, 2011

In my lifetime ~

I've been busy working for the past 1 week !
Fhewww.. i'm tired !
i need a break yo ~
I took a picture with RIHANNA !
WOOHOO ! ^^
My FAVOURITE SEXY SINGER <3
hahaha !
(But its a poster only-.-)

Well, you guys must be thinking who is this guy in the photo here with me right ?
hahaha !
Well, he's my Best Buddy in ITE yo! ^^
He's a Great friend (:
Life would be different without him in school y'know !
hahaha !
I love ya bro ~
HEH HEH HEH ^^


But there's another person that equally important.
Bet he's known well here.
hahaha !
In my life, without him, Life really would makes different.
That's all i could say.
Without him, i wouldnt be like how i am now.
I would be the worse ? (MAYBE)
So, thank him very much ! <3
Like he always say. "lets be a better person for each other, InsyaAllah~"
Amin ~

Goodnight peeps! ^^
Gonna sleep now..
Time checked : 12 Midnight
Sham Sham needs her rest, tmr working AGAIN !
Whuhuk Whuhuk Whuk !
*Zahirul's Laughter*

Sweet dreams, love ones ^^
(Especially you...)

Thursday, June 16, 2011

One day after...160611




Hey, Goodnight people! ^^
I'm here blogging again :D
I guess i'll update my blog everyday, unless if i'm too tired to blog!
hahahaha !
Okay let's get started (:


This morning i woke up at 9.30am
Because i need to go to work ^^
Morning call azfar, ask him wake up !
He's voice like... (Mat Mat Rocker, baru bangun tidoo)
Then i go take my shower :)
After that, I get prepared and left for work.
Planned to meet Azfar, Achap and Mimi.
Unfortunately, Danial didnt work today~
(Maybe LAZY i guess^^)

Then meet Azfar at Admiralty's Station...
Then to AMK Station to meet Achap (:
(Achap's face look so stunned when he saw Azfar!)
HAHAHAHAHA !!
They met each other for the 1st time ^^
Woohoo !
Finally i get them to meet each other ! :D
But when Azfar alight at the next stop, Bishan, Achap blamed me for not letting him know that Azfar is with me.. HAHAHA ! Sorry uh bro! ^^
That was the plan, actually! ~

After that we head to Toa Payoh to meet Mimi.
Then off to work ...
My work ends at 10pm !
FhOOOOOOO ! Tired siol, uh uh siol ! ~
Lucky Raj's dad came and picked us up back to Woodlands (:
Me and Kishan is very lucky ^^
Thank you Raj :DD

Then talk to Azfar while i'm on the home
Lucky got him to acc me ^^
(AT LEAST IM NOT ALONE!)
Thank you Azzzzzzfarrrr ! :DD

And now, i just finish bathing.
Waiting for my wet hair to dry and im off to bed ^^
Goodnight peeps <3
Thank you for your time for reading my blog everyday! ^^
(IF YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE^^)
HAHAHAHA !!!
*You're my secret stalker*
A special THANK YOU to you !
Hehe !

(Starting from this part, ALL written by MYSELF!)
(No copyright! Composed by SHAMSHAM<3)

I've FINALLY know the meaning of LOVE..
Love is not all about yourself, its also about others.
Others that you love and care.
We must understand each other's feelings.
We must respect each other's decision.
And remember, if we are fate to be with each other, means we'll still be together no matter what..
It's just a matter of time that you have to wait.

You may be waiting for years and years but orang cakap kalau dah jodoh, takkan ke mane^^


And as for me, there goes the one i love...
Its because of situation that we cant be together.
I still have feelings for him and i still love him.
But whatever it is, i know i cant be together with him.
He's the best among the rest i've known.
He was close to
perfection for me.
Just because of 1 small thing only and he's not~
I respect of what he wanna do in the future.
And i pray for him that he'll succeed.
I support him.
InsyaAllah, he can do this.
*It's a long way you to go*
i only can give you my luck and support.
But i guess HE can help you more (:
All the best ~



Tuesday, June 14, 2011

STRESSED OUT !

Today i felt very UPSET, SAD, UNHAPPY and SCARE !
So many MIXED-UP feelings lah !
Like ROJAK, dunno what to say ~
There's so much RUBBISH in my mind right now!
Its already almost 12 midnight and i'm not asleep yet..
GREAT !
Thinking about some personal matters, WORK, friends and R/S really sometimes makes me get so stressed up ! )': ARGH !

Ya allah, tolong lah hamba-mu ini.. Berikan lah dia per-tunjuk...
Kuatkan lah hati dia untuk menghadapi semua ini )':

For my WORK stuff, i'm so tired that i have to work for 6 days straight for 14 hours each day ! Well, come on.. Everybody thinks that this is CRAZY -.- But this is the FATE that i'm doing right now ! Come on, not only this ~ During work, i still have to face those FUCK-ED UP colleagues and guests ! WTF -.- This is so tiring yo ! Lucky i've got my bro, Achap, Mimi and Dani to help me out during worktime :DD Thank you guys !

As for my FRIENDS problem ?
Haiss ...
Farrah thought that after i've gotten into a relationship, I've got no more time for them ): But she got it all wrong la ! She said that i meet my bf everyday ?!
Hmmm NO LAH ! CRAZY ! She got me wrong uh ~
i only meet him like only 2-3 times a week seh ...
Haiyooo !

And now, my RELATIONSHIP thingy ?
Haiyoo ... I've got nothing much to say about this ~
This is all up to him, REALLY !
I only follow what he wants, IF its for the best ?
Hopefully we'll last long baby ! ~
I love you very much, AND i want you to know that !
Eventhought you've changed abit, i still love you for who you are ^^

Hopefully i'll feel better after i met with my 'BABY-GIRL' tmr ^^
Meeting ERRA tmr :DD
ANNA now got PORKY'S back le !
Then now leave me alone )':
Lucky still got MANI ... Felt abit better after telling him some of my problem :)
Thank you MANI !

Good night ~

Monday, June 13, 2011

A DATE WITH MY BABY-G !

Hey yo ! :D
Today did nothing much at home..
Woke up at 9am jst now!
Get spammed calls and sms-es by ANNABELLA!
Thanks for spamming eh -.-
Call me to accompany her for breakfast (:


After that,
ERRA
came to my house.
I accompanied her to the Woodlands Polyclinic.
Because she had rashes on face !
And then, we went to see some fishes (:
ERRA and ME bought some FISH-SHY ~
ERRA bought a Guppy Fish called RED-DY-ASS!
And i buy some small fishes to put it with my turtles~

Then we head to CWP to eat !
(KFC chosen!)
After that ERRA went to work sent by her bf, AFIQ~
And i went off to home :D
Sorry ANNA, cant stay with you for dinner ~

And now, i'm home, BLOGGING !
And plus keep staring at RED-DY-ASS's beautiful ass !
Gonna prepare for a long day tmr ~
NEVER in my life, doing a job for 14 hours ! -.- WTH !
okay, Gonna blog soon :D

Saturday, June 11, 2011

I'm back to blogging !

Yo Yo Yo ! :DD
I'M BACK TO BLOGGING (:
Its been like almost a year that i didn't update my blog.

Life so far has been GREAT for me (:
I've finally found a person that could guide me in life.
AND I LOVE HIM WITH ALL MY HEART.
This is him, My boy, AZFAR <33

Aku bersyukur pada ALLAH kerana telah mempertemukan aku bersama dia.
Alhamdulilah ~
Aku berasa sangat beruntung kerana telah menjumpai-nya.
Dia adalah seseorang yang sangat unik yang pernah aku kenal.
Dia tidak sama dengan yang lain telah aku kenal..
Dia telah mengajar aku untuk berubah menjadi seseorang insan yang baik.
Dia juga adalah seseorang yang rajin, beriman, penyayang dan berkerja keras..
Walaupun aku mengenalinya pada masa yang singkat, aku dapat merasakan dia adalah seorang yang baik hati, suka menolong orang dan penyabar (:
Ini adalah sesuatu yang aku cari pada seorang lelaki <3

I felt so fortunate for having him in my life..
I wish that we'll last long baby!
I love you saaayang ! <3
Hope that i'll change to be a better person for you.
InsyaAllah ~